Found this... God is so faithful!!

Okay-- this was written in Notes on facebook after Caedmon had a couple of seizures that landed us in the hospital in 2008. I found it and began to weep in awe of my God who restores and heals and shows his faithfulness time after time after time. Caedmon has come such a LONG way from this moment in time and I can recall SO many ways God used this particular event to mold our family and I trust, others. Wanted to share, again.... He is ALWAYS near friends. Enjoy.

December 31, 2008

We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and
endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope
DOES NOT put us to shame, because Gods love has been poured into our hearts
through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. Romans 5:3-5

Caedmon had two seizures Saturday night late. We met the doctor at the emergency room due to the number and length of the seizures. We were admitted Sunday morning and stayed through Monday night. Caedmon is fine we've learned that seizures hurt the people around the person seizing more than they hurt them but due to the medication dosage they needed to give Caedmon we had to stay for a long length of time so they could monitor him. Since we've been home we have lowered this new medication to make it more tolerable for Caedmon. He is very drowsy and sometimes gets dizzy. This is a short term medication but we will still be giving two meds for seizures in the future. We will probbaly switch to one that does not have such a negative effect on his mood and personality at a later date. His body should get used to this medicine while he is on it though. There are no real answers for seizures. Why they happen and what can cause them is unknown in our case and in most cases. It is a game to find which med works and what dosage works ...so until then we pray and speak against seizures! We will go see our neorologist in January and decide on a more suitable medication for long term and begin trying to figure out what may be causing these seizures to happen. Also, we will not always end up in the hospital when they happen. Seizures can't take Caedmons smile away and his strength and braveness is unbelievable! We were so proud of how he acted to everything while at the hospital. I will not keep you much longer but I will say this... in our life group we have been talking about suffering and while in the ER Jeff says to me, "Getting through suffering is easier said than done but in all things God remains in control and continues to care about his children" ... this is what we believe and will teach our kids to believe. God is so good and through everything he watches over us and protects us. His hand is in it all and for that we give him the glory in this time!

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Okay so I am drawing the BIGGEST blank ever for what to blog about BUT i have this craving to blog right now so i'll just type. Here we go, might be the most boring blog you've ever read....IF you continue to read it from here:)----no feelings hurt;)

Many of you do not know that I mask a lot, not in a dishonest way but in a desperate need to push my strength forward kinda of way...(seriously, you're still reading?:)..... for reasons that I feel I have to and for recognition that the Lord has given me through grace an undeserved amount of strength for certain (very important) reasons and then for reasons I feel is expected of me and then reasons I feel is what I need to do to mask how i am really feeling due to perspective or what have you. I at 28 am learning a lot about myself in that I feel the need to carry a lot of strength about things that deep down I'm not so strong on because I desire (so much) to be strong. (don't we all?) ... I, along with Marla, am doing a little Beth Moore bible study on Esther. It is SO good. I am going at a rather slow pace but its part of my fuel right now. To do something MORE than what you expect yourself to do.... and/or something more than what others expect you to do (or be) and give that glory to God and allow him to mold you and change you----insert me saying to me:) "you hard headed fool" here--- I am getting a lot out of this study on how to set self aside because so much of the time i can tie things back to ..... what's a good word? FLESHY! Eww. Also learning: Its okay to be a little caught off guard sometimes and its okay to not have ALL the answers to whatever pops up right away. Now, i feel as if i should have a masters degree in this area....(don't ever say you LOVE last minute....life.... out loud) but the main thing is that I am not my own savior (gasp) and if I had ALL the strength for everything this beautiful life has to offer then whose strength am I ultimately relying on?.... I NEED MY CHRIST. I need his love, his mercy and his strength to overflow through me.... without it I am nothing. Just a really white girl with tanned freckles (ha) and a good laugh. So to conclude this random thought... I would say that not everything in life requires me to be strong, its okay to feel overwhelmed and to feel even defeated at times... what's healthy is when I turn that energy to the one that sustains me, the one that fuels me and gives me the hope I need. MY GOD. JESUS CHRIST. I Praise him.